RAYA GATHERING

Just back to KL after long holiday. Well, during Raya we just stay at home and having barbeque for diner. This due to my eldest brother not recovering from injury i.e. falling from roof tops i.e. his knee/pelvic bone fracture. So we cannot go anywhere for family trip or outing. After finish our session on request for forgiveness to the eldest and everybody, we doing our own things. After this week, my mum will be left alone again; all my siblings will be heading back to their own house.

I’ve a chat with mum during our visit to the memorial park, visiting the grave of my Dad, Grandma/Pa. She said that she don’t know whether she is still available to see my Shea & Avee going to school which expected to be next 3-4 years. Hmmh.. I told her, not to worry she will be there to witness it. She just smiles while looking at me, that smile remind me that she knows that I’m talking shit as usual. Were thinking to bring her for a vacation next year maybe I’ll organize a family trip for mum & my siblings somewhere on Mar/Apr next year, cheap air fares whatelse..hehehe.

Back to Hari Raya gathering, this special day is specifically tribute to the Eldest in that generation or family, since mum still there, the function of parent is still exist although dad’s not available, dad’s function is taken over by my eldest brother and his wife. Once mum’s no longer there, the 1st generation disappear and the 2nd generation will take over. The “weight of balik kampong” is no longer there and it’s solely depends on the siblings either they want to defend the current culture or they free to do their own things with their family. I’ll choose to defend the current culture and let my children learn and aware that obedient and respect of the eldest is a must in a family.

In life, we have to face several process of maturity and it all depends on our willingness to accept it and will power to face it, either its negative or positive it’s totally depend on our perception. Good or bad is just perception in life. Sometimes good thing we perceived is bad for the other people and same goes to bad things happen in life, sometime it’s good for other people who face it. In life just accept what it is in front of us and the nature will make us understand more. Same goes to process of implementation!

These remind me to my sister, her husband is a polygamist practitioner and she is still in a state of denial and cannot accept the truth in life that she is now facing. Result for not accepting it, she lost her mind, always tense & stressful. Phobia of meeting people, prejudice of people looking down/bad at her, talk nonsense, unfocus attention each time she converse when meeting people is a result of how bad that she need a psychiatric treatment. Now she is totally lost in space and against nature. As what my bro G mentioned, the hubby is responsible to bring her meeting the psychiatric specialist. Hmmh I’m agreed with that, married for all this long years, at least he should be more responsible by bringing her as a 1st wife to see a doctor. Its his rights anyway, he is the one who marry her and take her away from the family, most of the siblings cannot do anything because in our culture, she is no more in the family - She is a wife to somebody. The hubby is the one who spark the fire, also known as the “holy man” who can marry more than one, so he should take that rights and protect her.

Personal Notes:

Perception of any women in this world - relationship, love and life cannot be shared. To accept a husband who’s having 3 more wives after her without her noticing it? It’s really a joke and disaster.

Hmmh… against nature means disrespect, dishonest, disloyal; disobey the nature rules and regulation. What to do, what comes around turns around. Rule of Nature!

Sincere is a words, implement it is another!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA – EID MUBARAK

Ramadan going to end soon, well today is the 28th day of the holy month, and the Victorious Day (Hari Raya) expected to be this Sunday. The whole Muslim world will be celebrating Eidul Fith, while in Malays community, most of them will be going back to their hometown to celebrate with their parents and love ones. Visit the relatives and start chatting just to get back what have lost the whole year.

Same goes to me, at night we (My family) will be having diner together will all the siblings, their children and start talking about our daily life, work, kids, and lots more to share since that’s the only gathering day throughout the year. After diner everybody starts doing their own things, well as for me, I’ll be waiting for my school mates to arrive at my parent’s house.

Usually my parent’s house is the port /or point to meet. Most of my schoolmates will be arriving late which is after 10pm, and most of us eager to meet each other since it’s the only gathering activities throughout the year. We still friends although just once in a year, and this activities has been there for the past….emmhhh…..I think when I’m damn young …uhhh..its more than 20 years….GOSSHHH!!!!

As always, our annual gathering ceremony will be held everywhere, either snooker/pool table and will end up to confidential meeting or we called it as KNIGHT OF THE ROUND “CASINO” TABLE, I know that everybody (My schoolmates) looking forward for that round table meeting. That meeting will cover almost every inch of world economy, politics, environment, history, geography, life, religion and etc….almost everything…hehhehe, in the meantime everybody piss-off at each other while looking at who’s winning the Black Jack or Poker Games. After the games, which usually end-up after 6am, we will be together having our teh tarik or roti canai before heading back to our belongings, and will continue chatting next year without fail. Huuh that’s what I called friends babe!...hehhehe.

Well, that enough about my activities during that day, when looking back to my house, emmh….
Dad no longer there, only mum living alone at that house. She’s old and weak, always come to my mind what it’s like getting old and living alone. Growing old meaning more sensitive, want more attention and care. It’s not easy to take care an old women especially a mother, but a mother can take care 10 children without fail to realize it. Live and die, death comes to everybody. When dad’s pass away, mum didn’t have any Hero to protect her. She just needs a person who can listen to her mumblings and obey whatever instruction she’s giving. I know that not even one of her children can replace dad, but everybody is doing whatever best they can to give her better life, security and comfort.

I’m thinking to cook her favorite and also my favorite’s “rendang tok” this Saturday, I’m going to learn from her how cook that dishes and also Kuah Kacang (Peanut Sauce) for the Ketupat (Kiub Rice covered with coconut leaves).

I know time is not on mum’s side, I’m trying my best to fulfill whatever she wants in life before leaving us for good. She is damn healthy and enjoys every second of her life, deep in my heart I know that she is praying to leave the world without “menyusahkan semua orang”. She is the plain type…peace and harmony, she will make sure that she is going without hate or regret only love. Till to date, I feel I’m not doing enough for her, and if she goes now…..meaning I’m the most regret person i.e. doing nothing for her!!! I’m the most scumbag, naughtiest and notorious among all my siblings. The record shows without fail…hehehhe!
Well…Mak just request whatever you want in life, with my spirit, soul and body, I doing the best to fulfill it!

Personal Notes:
Aged factor – Growing Old is a must, complement nature and not against it! I love you Mak!

To all my readers and bloggers friends, SELAMAT HARI RAYA, from the depth of my heart, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

Jack.

NATURE’S RESURRECTION

Just being brief by Mr. Tuah & also spoken to Mr. Jebat on the current scenario of Malaysian economy and moving forward agenda on our project & businesses. Well, feel great looking at all parties involved and their pledging commitment on this new project.

History being created and I do believe the nature’s flow by itself. All the team commitment, focus, sacrifice and hardship for the past 2 years have been proven and their dedication almost unbearable and my uncontrolled tears flow without notice.

Uuuhhh…such a great friends & buddy.

Tuah, Jebat, Hasan, Zam, Bob, Mud, Az, Ina…..you guys are wonderful! Our strength is trust, sincerity, total sacrifice and being united as one! Just keep it up …we have several more long years a head.

The journey just begins, long way to go guys! We are the dream team!

My note:
Focus, sacrifice and hardship are an essence of a better life. We human have been given freedom to choose and has full of choices. As long we work hard for it, obey nature rules and regulation, love our family & GOD.

I do believe peace and harmony will be upon us. My principle, as long as we didn’t take what not belong to us and protect our belongings, is good enough.

Hey…..infront of us just death! So what …….Lets fight for our right!

LOOK FAR EAST

Just came back from my visit to East Coast, so delay in updating this column is expected.

Several discussion, plan/direction being cook up with my teammate there, yet solution still not appear. Eeiiyukk!!!!!!!….

Sometime I feel pity looking at my team. They strive to contribute but due to external factors, creativity being blocked………! I just remind myself – progress of decision making also contributed by nature’s factor. If it’s not yours….well its not!

Same goes to my belief… “Whatever mine, I’ve to protect, develop & fought for it, if it’s not - just don’t bother…walk away!!! Hehehehe.


Emmh….My Note:

For Muslim out there, happy fasting! May your life lavish with wisdom & good health.
Eid Fith is coming! Hope we can forgive & forget all wrong doings and continue to move forward.

Jack.